Let it go :)

Remember the time when you were a kid and broke your favourite toy? Your parents got you the same one again but you never stopped crying about it? The time when you had to switch schools because your parents were posted in a different city? You cried and pleaded for letting you complete the term but they didn’t listen. In retrospect, you know that wasn’t an option to consider but you did sulk for days. How you refused to eat for days when your pet disappeared. You felt so heartbroken. Thought it was the end of the world. You just couldn’t bear to live another day without him.

Nothing much changes as we grow up. Just that the situation is different and the toys and candies are replaced by jobs and people. We meet someone. Fall in love. Everything moves in slow motion. Your mind just tunes out the world and the sound of that special someone plays like Mozart in your ears. You look at the world through coloured glasses called love. You feel so good about everything around you and about yourself. They make you realise you are the best thing that has ever happened to them. This becomes the epicenter of your life. Everything is mushy mushy and dreamy and starry. And then suddenly, unexpectedly, everything falls apart!

You break up. Or rather the “one” decides to break up with you. First reaction, denial. That’s the most common one. You just refuse to believe that such a thing can happen with you. That they are capable of calling it off. You try your best to make sense of all that’s happening but in vain. The second reaction is either an outburst or walking all over your self esteem by making those puppy eyes and pleading them to give it another try. You know you are doing so wrong to your own self but still do it. Why?

We humans adapt to change in a very strange way. At times like these it gets even more difficult. When we are in love, we just curl up and let the emotions wrap around us like a cocoon. Disconnected from the outside world. We condition our minds to get comfortable in this situation. This is our haven. Now tell me, how difficult it is to get out of bed in a winter morning? You know you can’t be lying there all day long because you are “adulting” now. But you still want to get that extra five minutes of sleep. You are aware those five minutes won’t last long but you try to make the most of it by holding on to it for your dear life! 

So if that seems such an impossible task to do, imagine what happens when the relationship which was our coziest spot is no longer going to be there. Can’t wrap your head around it, can we? The reason why heartbreaks are so painful is simply because we refuse to accept the change. We refuse to get out of our comfort zone. We want to close our eyes to the outside world and stay in that soft ball safe spot for the rest of our lives. But sadly that’s not possible.

Even the teeny tiny caterpillar when breaks out if the cocoon turns into a beautiful butterfly. Such pretty colours. Such beauty. Would we have ever witnessed this extraordinary thing if the caterpillar decided to be as stubborn as us? Stomping its feet, throwing a tantrum saying I’m not going out in the world!? And what happens when the otherwise happens? It even refuses to stay at one place. It’s the new found freedom. It’s fluttering wings, uncertain at first, gaining confidence with each leap, spreading smiles on every face that sees it. 

Why can’t we? Fallen on the ground, flat on the face, at our lowest, decide to pick ourselves up. Dust the negativity off. Gather our broken pieces and mend a new you? A broken heart might have scars but that’s what holds it together. Those are like the wrinkles on our face. Each for a year of maturity. Each for a year of growing up. Each for the bravery of letting go..